@Claraviolet , The root cause of my pain is from standing on my feet all day. For the last two days (my Saturday and Sunday, I've done nothing but sit at my desk, in my gaming chair. (Haven't bothered doing any of the chores that need to be done, because I hurt too much). As of right now (Friday Night), I have minimal pain. It still hurts to stand up, but at least I can stand and walk somewhat normally and at a decent speed-- unlike Thursday morning, where I had to hold on to whatever furniture I could find to support my own weight whenever I stood up. And I know that tomorrow, by the end of the day, that pain will be back, even with consuming a minimum of three doses of Ibuprofen (total of 2400 mg) and two doses of Tylenol (2000 mg total). If I don't take the pills, I'm in such agony that I can't even stand up.
I've tried better insoles. I've been doing the massage and the ice bottle, and the stretching. I've taken salt water hot soaks. It all helps, but it's temporary at best. Next the doctors are probably going to want to shoot me up with Cortisone, but again, that's only a temporary "band aid" fix. What I need is a desk job. And right now, that's looking impossible:
The job market is practically frozen. Companies aren't hiring-- especially older people like me. They fear that I'll want too much money per hour.
Most places end up "ghosting" me. They'll never call back, they don't answer the phone when I call, emails never get responded to, it's almost like they are just a big black hole.
I'm beyond hopeless at the moment. I know that my body can't take much more of this abuse. Sooner or later, I'm going to end up with liver failure, kidney failure, a heart attack, or a stroke. I could end up with some new condition I learned about (forgot the name of it, where my belly becomes inflamed from the excessive Ibuprofen). And, I'm trying to remain positive despite the absolute government.... "issues" that's currently going on here in the USA.
That's just my physical, normal every day health. I'm extremely stressed out, filled with anxiety, and batting some serious depression-- I've lost all motivation to even write creatively. Like the past two days, I've mostly just sat here staring at my blinking cursor. I'll roll up a character, but then I can't create the backstory for that character in my role playing games. I don't even have any interest to watch television. Just quietness.
And let's also not forget that I think I've been battling some darn bug...the flu, maybe walking pneumonia for all I know. I have a deep chest congestion, a wheezing in my chest. Been coughing, very low grade fever off and on. And a headache that just won't go away. I'm really not in good shape at all.
Now, the good news is that I'm scheduled to see my Primary Care Physician. But that's not for a couple of weeks yet, and if I don't have the money for my health insurance, I can kiss that appointment good-bye. I barely have enough money to cover my rent ($1650 per month. I get paid about $1800 per month after taxes. I still got electricity ($150+), phone ($40), Internet ($30), Bus pass ($30), and food ($300+). $17.31 an hour, working 35 to 40 hours per week barely cuts it.
Sorry, I started ranting and rambling again. I'm just beyond stressed out right now.
