I am losing hope

[Blackrose]

lol no haven't seen the it but lately i haven't been smiling. got no reason to have them in life.
people are swearing at me and throwing words at me. i blocked but i can't block everyone

Why not?
Block them all if they don't suit you. Then they will know that you're serious and fed up. They know how good you are and how soft you are. That's why they are doing that. Put them in their place by showing them how little you need them and their opinions.
What I've learnt, don't be afraid to lose those that are pulling you down. Sometimes we pray for peace and goodness only to find that it's the ones closet to us that need to be broken off. It hurts but it's gonna help you to grow so much more .