I never change

Claraviolet

Claraviolet

Real hero hidden in the darkness
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Today I received a message from my mom to come home. I couldn't stop crying for whole 20 minutes or so. 
I was happy she wanted me by her side and say that it took her this much time to ask me.
Well, I couldn't do it myself, as I was told that being around me would only cause my mom pain for various reasons. 
I guess it's not possible for me, to love my mom a little less. I wish I could.. But I just can't.
I went to my manager and kinda demanded that I need leave.
He was shocked and he started explaining how hard it is... To give leave and such...I told him I would be leaving as I can avoid it. Finally he said fine...
I bet he will lower my appraisal rating for sure.. But I can't get myself to care.
 
Family is very important, my sister lives away and she's lonely without our mum, but she visits. It's a natural feeling, no need to think bad of yourself.
 
Ace said:
Family is very important, my sister lives away and she's lonely without our mum, but she visits. It's a natural feeling, no need to think bad of yourself.
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it's nothing to be ashamed of. it's love from heart. you can't change it overnight and if you couldn't change it even after sometime then accept it. she is your mother and she will accept you
 
uhhh.. really? dont see why she wants to keep her distance from ya. But i can tell that, your mum is your world for ya :). Go for it, clara. It's saturday and sunday soon anyway.. These shitty companies who cant even permit one day leave..... fuck them.
 
Sase said:
uhhh.. really? dont see why she wants to keep her distance from ya. But i can tell that, your mum is your world for ya :). Go for it, clara. It's saturday and sunday soon anyway.. These shitty companies who cant even permit one day leave..... fuck them.
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Aint gonna ask ya about the fight.. Spend some quality fam time for now~ :). Sweet btw, hometown eh..? enjoyyyy
 
Sase said:
Aint gonna ask ya about the fight.. Spend some quality fam time for now~ :). Sweet btw, hometown eh..? enjoyyyy
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Sometime...never mind...let's forget about the depressing stuff :P
Sure thank you. It's just me and my mom now. It's good. So much changed in just 2 months or so....hmm
 
Claraviolet said:
Sometime...never mind...let's forget about the depressing stuff :P
Sure thank you. It's just me and my mom now. It's good. So much changed in just 2 months or so....hmm
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A month back my mom visited me....
Well, yeah..it's been 2 months since I have been to my hometown.

Everything is changing ;_;

Demon_skeith said:
I hope your trip goes well, though your work doesn't offer some kind of emergency time leave?
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Nope. we only have 15 leaves and that to we have to get approval from the manager first ;_;
 
Claraviolet said:
A month back my mom visited me....
Well, yeah..it's been 2 months since I have been to my hometown.

Everything is changing ;_;
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Always quite hard to deal with fam. issues sometimes.... umaiva suoi tha unna.. vasureruna.
 
Sase said:
Always quite hard to deal with fam. issues sometimes.... umaiva suoi tha unna.. vasureruna.
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Hehe. Thank you kiddo.
Yeah....they are hard to deal with because we are close to them :P
 

It did, too late.... I feel so old when I get philosophical thoughts and all the more, I grow more mature sometimes.....
 
Sase said:
It did, too late.... I feel so old when I get philosophical thoughts and all the more, I grow more mature sometimes.....
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(_ _) you are missing out on childhood kiddo.
Enjoy the childhood while you still can.
Later it wouldn't come back ya know
 
Claraviolet said:
(_ _) you are missing out on childhood kiddo.
Enjoy the childhood while you still can.
Later it wouldn't come back ya know
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Nah, it's dead when I graduated from high school.. I dont regret the current me at all.. :). As I said to ya once.. I like how I am. Idc, what others think about me.. Also, change is natural.. change is what made me who I am now.

Most people, if they have time travel powers would wanna redo their most sweet memories... Me though, heck nah... I have come upto this point. Present and future is what Ima cover.
 
Sase said:
Nah, it's dead when I graduated from high school.. I dont regret the current me at all.. :). As I said to ya once.. I like how I am. Idc, what others think about me.. Also, change is natural.. change is what made me who I am now.

Most people, if they have time travel powers would wanna redo their most sweet memories... Me though, heck nah... I have come upto this point. Present and future is what Ima cover.
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See? Well, I have bad and good memories .. we all do. It's just, I for once, wont wanna redo and rectify them.. It's "done".
I am sort of tough... yeah.
 
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