Horrible experience

Claraviolet

Claraviolet

Real hero hidden in the darkness
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I don't get why people don't like it sit beside the same gender.. Damn.
Anyway, I usually keep my bad beside and I would take it only when a female asks me to do.
I am using my phone so excuse my typos.
Well then, I also keep the window open to drive away anyone from sitting beside me and most of the time it works.
But there are times when people don't care and wanted to sit there.
I can't exactly ignore them as they are my colleagues. Two days back, a guy sat beside me. I moved to the corner and curled quite a bit. Just an uncomfortable position and everything in my body started to hurt. Now, believe me I wouldn't cry and my pain tolerance is a bit high when I am outside.
But on that day I was tired and sick... After an hour I couldn't hold it in an my tears started to fall. I couldn't stop them but even then I couldn't sit comfortably at all.
I hate these moments. I wish I am not like this but this is me and I have to accept it before I end up hating myself.
Is there a way, to not let anyone sit beside me?
I usually take the seat which is almost at the very back and open the window even though it's too cold.
@"Ace"  @"Sase"
 
The only way would be shift your places with a girl besides ya or just if there is a place where you can be seated alone.. Trust me Clara, for real, that guy is just sitting in the corner. He is away from ya by inches.. You think too much about him being there. Just focus on your work instead of thinking about other things. Remove the thought that he is a male.. Think that he is just a human. You goto office for your work. Doing work should be your only thought..
 
Sase said:
The only way would be shift your places with a girl besides ya or just if there is a place where you can be seated alone.. Trust me Clara, for real, that guy is just sitting in the corner. He is away from ya by inches.. You think too much about him being there. Just focus on your work instead of thinking about other things. Remove the thought that he is a male.. Think that he is just a human. You goto office for your work. Doing work should be your only thought..
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;_;
I tried to watch anime and tried music as well ya know. I just couldn't relax and I know he meant no harm but still....
 
Claraviolet said:
;_;
I tried to watch anime and tried music as well ya know. I just couldn't relax and I know he meant no harm but still....
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Anime and music just to avoid a silly thought that a guy was there besides ya.. And it failed too *sighs and facepalm* ... Fight it.
 
Sase said:
Anime and music just to avoid a silly thought that a guy was there besides ya.. And it failed too *sighs and facepalm* ... Fight it.
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Believe me, is it's that easy I wouldn't be suffering so much kiddo.
Daily stuff are nightmare for me. Each day I pray hoping that no one would notice my strange beast behavior but I believe many people in my team already know about this....
 
Sase said:
Dont bother with other's opinions.. But learn to stand up on your own.
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Yeah but I just wish my parents would understand me completely.
Well I hide all this from them and came up with excuses for everything.. So it's a shocker for them
 
Demon_skeith said:
I am.... very confused why you curled up?
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Uhh... Never mind.
A very long story and I bet you haven't followed my other thread...
Anyway, thank you for your concern.
 
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