Have you felt ashamed of what you have become?

Blackangel

Blackangel

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i still think i could have become a better person but now i can't change it and i an ashamed of myself sometimes.
 
I don't think this is my limit. So I won't be able to tell whether I am ashamed or not. But I don't want to be ashamed of myself
 
For one, I don't really think I have become anything...
I wonder what makes you say this, but whatever it is, I hope you find the courage and strength to work on it. 
I do have few quotes which I keep telling myself at the end of a day when I feel crap.

"Try again, fail again, fail better"

"Remember where you started? It was tough. But now you're here. You have seen worst." 

"Forgive and believe yourself"

"Speak the truth even if you're shivering" 

"What next?" (Lol this is literally just a question. But a meaningful one if you think carefully)

Well there's more, and not like I follow these 100% of the times. I just talked to myself a lot I guess xD

But one thing I know is, we live for a short span of few decades x) Life isn't something to be taken too seriously. 

People LIVE. They are capable of living through any kind of situation. There's more compassion now then there ever was. And you will need to hustle when reality hits you anyway...
Okay, I am getting waaaay off topic here.
 
[quote="Elvis" pid='99941' dateline='1531484367']
Yes. What should I do?  :what1: Would killing myself help?
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no. you should keep struggling and made those fuckers who laughed at you, kneel in front of you. it might seem impossible, but i plan to do something to get to it.

[quote="Ace" pid='99946' dateline='1531497637']
you can always change it just takes time and effort
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i don't have much time, before i turn into a old lady. two decades and my life would be practically over.

[quote="Mansi14" pid='99999' dateline='1531505780']
For one, I don't really think I have become anything...
I wonder what makes you say this, but whatever it is, I hope you find the courage and strength to work on it. 
I do have few quotes which I keep telling myself at the end of a day when I feel crap.

"Try again, fail again, fail better"

"Remember where you started? It was tough. But now you're here. You have seen worst." 

"Forgive and believe yourself"

"Speak the truth even if you're shivering" 

"What next?" (Lol this is literally just a question. But a meaningful one if you think carefully)

Well there's more, and not like I follow these 100% of the times. I just talked to myself a lot I guess xD

But one thing I know is, we live for a short span of few decades x) Life isn't something to be taken too seriously. 

People LIVE. They are capable of living through any kind of situation. There's more compassion now then there ever was. And you will need to hustle when reality hits you anyway...
Okay, I am getting waaaay off topic here.
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thank you so much for these words. i have been thinking about meaning of my life and finally i understand what you mean here. but i don't see me doing anything much even if i struggle.
 
SecretWish said:
i don't have much time, before i turn into a old lady. two decades and my life would be practically over.
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awh naw it's never too late. 2 decades is more than enough time
 
SecretWish said:
no. you should keep struggling and made those fuckers who laughed at you, kneel in front of you. it might seem impossible, but i plan to do something to get to it.

i don't have much time, before i turn into a old lady. two decades and my life would be practically over.


thank you so much for these words. i have been thinking about meaning of my life and finally i understand what you mean here. but i don't see me doing anything much even if i struggle.
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As Ace said, 2 decades is a long time to do things. You probably had some difference in your life last year at this same moment.
 
Ace said:
awh naw it's never too late. 2 decades is more than enough time
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2 decades can go by easily but that you for your kind words.

Mansi14 said:
As Ace said, 2 decades is a long time to do things. You probably had some difference in your life last year at this same moment.
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i don't really have differences in my life and it's the same old. i don't hate it with the same but i want to lead a different one.
Sase said:
Maybe related to situations .. But me for who I am, heck nah~. I love the bad and good part in me..
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i expected that from you. you are too independent and gives off that 'fuck off' and 'who gives a shit' vibe a lot.
 
SecretWish said:
i expected that from you. you are too independent and gives off that 'fuck off' and 'who gives a shit' vibe a lot.
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That's me, yup~. I dont give shits to things much.. Unnecessary stress. I dont wanna earn a good name , fake myself just to get attention and recognition.. This is me and I alone gotta live with myself till I die. So, I have to love myself for who I am. Others opinion.. I take them, I leave them.. Not counting it that much~.

Dunno if ya know this but I am half introvert and half extrovert.. The introvert side in me is what makes me numb to things cause I like being alone as well. Life would get messed up if ya live and abide for other's ppl's opinions and wishes always. The extrovert side is opposite in this.. Am sociallable, chill.. So yeah, i do obey ppl who's words are worthy enough. And they care for my welfare and such sometimes..
Depends on how ppl are interacting with me~
 
Sase said:
That's me, yup~. I dont give shits to things much.. Unnecessary stress. I dont wanna earn a good name , fake myself just to get attention and recognition.. This is me and I alone gotta live with myself till I die. So, I have to love myself for who I am. Others opinion.. I take them, I leave them.. Not counting it that much~.

Dunno if ya know this but I am half introvert and half extrovert.. The introvert side in me is what makes me numb to things cause I like being alone as well. Life would get messed up if ya live and abide for other's ppl's opinions and wishes always. The extrovert side is opposite in this.. Am sociallable, chill.. So yeah, i do obey ppl who's words are worthy enough. And they care for my welfare and such sometimes..
Depends on how ppl are interacting with me~
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There a term for half introvert and half extrovert. Ambivert.

SecretWish said:
2 decades can go by easily but that you for your kind words.


i don't really have differences in my life and it's the same old. i don't hate it with the same but i want to lead a different one.
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Well, good luck from now on x)
 
Sase said:
Yoooooo ... Sup? And I see..... Doc...tor. Jk.
Ya active these days at all?
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I had been inactive, busy schedule and lot of other things like no internet or no laptop and then I ended up having herpes so now I am on bed rest and finally getting time to binge watch anime again xD I am worried about completing my class's portion and my projects on time though... Even 4 of my cats got herpes (_ _) Train traveling during monsoon comes with all these risks of getting sick... Have you been around? xD
 
Mansi14 said:
I had been inactive, busy schedule and lot of other things like no internet or no laptop and then I ended up having herpes so now I am on bed rest and finally getting time to binge watch anime again xD I am worried about completing my class's portion and my projects on time though... Even 4 of my cats got herpes (_ _) Train traveling during monsoon comes with all these risks of getting sick... Have you been around? xD
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My class's portion as in... those I teach... not study xD man I haven't even started with my own studies xDDD
Watching any anime lately? :P
 
Mansi14 said:
My class's portion as in... those I teach... not study xD man I haven't even started with my own studies xDDD
Watching any anime lately? :P
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Like ya teach your friends or something? Wait, ya study or ya teach? Or ya do both?

The last anime I watched was on 29th June at 3.36 PM. You?
 
Sase said:
Like ya teach your friends or something? Wait, ya study or ya teach? Or ya do both?

The last anime I watched was on 29th June at 3.36 PM. You?
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Wow, that's quite specific. How do you remember that kind of detail? o.O I watched Bokurano yesterday!
I do both xD I teach at two different class and study at college...
 
Mansi14 said:
Wow, that's quite specific. How do you remember that kind of detail? o.O I watched Bokurano yesterday!
I do both xD I teach at two different class and study at college...
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